Ramadhan review

In difficulty and frustrating experience, we finally managed to send the two bundles on raya parcels to our daughters.

So puasa had passed through its first half and going through the final one. My puasa this year I think is so much better than last year if I considered by how many times we had sahur voluntarily. This year we had more sahor than last year. But for the past few days, we seemed to experience I bit of difficulties in waking up. But otherwise, it is better.

This year puasa is no better than last year in term of pleasure, because we are still stucked in this place. We hoped that we could have it back at home with the comfort of culinary delights. But what to do, God has His own agenda on us.

Ramadhan is the month for muslim to really test himself or herself because during this month according to God, all syaitans that live with the human being have been tied up. The only dealing that the human being got to do with is his or her nafsu. This is the time when we can really see who is the worse of the two, the syaitan or the nafsu.

In my case, I realised that, my nafsu is so much more difficult to control. This is due to the lack of defending arms like sabar. Without sabar, we can't really see the significant of redha or tawakal, or doa and really pray for Allah. This ramadhan gives me another opportunity to really measure myself in that sense. I can just try now to strenghten my arm power with full of sabar.

I hope that even after ramadhan, while syaitan are still trying to accommodate themselves with me, I could still continue to improve myself spiritually. I need to enhance the inner health, from within then I can strenghten myself for the future.

Atas batu jemala patek@ 2004-11-04;7:18 p.m.

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